Thursday, July 31, 2003
Hell to break loose?
Alrite, the project which I’ve been working on for the past few months have finally reached it’s peak. It’s gonna be launched next Monday n I really don’t feel good about it at all. I know for a fact that when the product reaches the market, hell going to break loose n I’m gonna be flooded with phone calls. Y u may ask. Well, all this thanks to the moron of a programmer who I’ve been working with for this project n also a requirement document for the project which is a total mess. Due to all this, I don’t have much confidence on the success of this project. The idea behind the whole project is really good n solid, but the execution part of it is bad. The project contains a lot of loopholes in the current practice that it need to be cover and a lot of constraints that we had to work within. I came into the project only towards the end of it. By that time the project was already 3 quarter completed, so there was nothing much I could do by then. Even if I’ve had the time I don’t think I could have done much on it. Coz, I was still fresh out of uni n have zero experience working with big project n I didn’t have any reference point to work with. This few months have really been a continues learning process for me. All I can do now is, sit tight n hope the ride through hell be fast n short (which will never be true). As much as I would like to make the launch of this project as quiet as possible n with minimum amount of publicity, it’s definitely not happening that way, the company management has a totally different idea on this. There’s been article on papers n tv about this project. Even today that bloody thing came out on tv.
On different issue altogether, I’m beginning to like the idea of listing out things. It’s really fun, u get to learn lots of things about urself. I’ve already started working on a new list, whether I’ll post this one is yet to be decided.
Make the best out of the worse.
@ 10:32 PM
Tuesday, July 29, 2003
This is me ...
100 things about me …
1. I never forgive people who betrays my trust.
2. I hate milk, yeah that’s the white liquid stuff.
3. I Love Milo. It kicks ass.
4. I hate the smell of beer.
5. I love to hang out with the machans.
6. I hate being bothered about my buying stuffs. Esp, MLM and Direct Selling stuffs.
7. I hate being told wat to do n wat not to do. i.e. nagged.
8. I hate motivations & advices.
9. I want to fool around, but don’t have the balls for it.
10. I can talk lots of crap with people I know.
11. I got lucky with girls few times.
12. I want to get lucky with some one who’s few years elder to me.
13. I don’t intend to try drugs.
14. Never really liked condoms.
15. I consume alcohol.
16. I never got drunk yet.
17. I want to be drunk at least once, just for the record.
18. I’m a F1 freak. Mclaren is my favorite team n Kimi is my favorite driver.
19. Planning to go for a F1 race either in Australia or Japan by 2005/6
20. Want to be rich, filthy rich. Hmmm, doesn’t everyone?
21. I like to make out near the beach. In the dark of course.
22. Never liked the idea of making out in a car.
23. Have sneaked into my galfren’s house without the parents knowing it.
24. Missing my uni life like hell.
25. Used to go on disappearing act for days n the longest was 1 week.
26. Used to go for jogs 3 in the morning.
27. Almost got kicked out of university (twice).
28. I fear that I might die due to health complications.
29. Have had girls in the hostel room during university time.
30. Hate to eat out all alone.
31. Like to go to the movies.
32. Listens to the song Vaseegara from Minnale over n over
33. Like the idea of living in an Island
34. Want to live my Singapore dream if it’s still possible.
35. Always seem to give the false impression to people around me. I’m not as innocent as some of u might think I am.
36. Don’t pray much.
37. Don’t like the smell of cigarettes and never have tried it.
38. Not good at making conversation with strangers
39. My favorite sitcom is “That 70’s Show”
40. Favorite cartoons are South Park n Futurama
41. Never got into fight. N intend to keep it that way.
42. Hate working with stupid programmers.
43. I’m a lousy programmer.
44. Always want the underdogs to beat the favorites in any aspect.
45. Don’t enjoy the company of morons.
46. Cannot tolerate stupidity.
47. I have black belt in teakwondo. But I doubt if I still can defend my self now.
48. Have had my share of totally out of the world stupid moments.
49. Can’t stand the double standard which is happening in the corporate world
50. Want to own a super cool looking 4WD in 3 years time.
51. As a kid, I wanted to be a pilot. Still want to…
52. Hate the sight of blood. That includes surgery scenes on TV.
53. Like the challenges from a long distance relationship.
54. Not a virgin. N it was not a tragedy. :D
55. I believe in one true love.
56. Believe that long distance relationship can work out.
57. Had massive crush for my best fren. Loooongggggggg time back.
58. My first porn movie was at the age of 19. Yes I’m a bit slow in that aspect.
59. Have bullied “bapoks” while I was in secondary school.
60. Have a lot of close frens. N they truly are great people in every sense.
61. Have traveled for more then 12 hours in a bus. Thank god it was only once.
62. Find it very hard to make new friends.
63. It takes damn long before I get close to someone.
64. Love tamil songs from the 70s n 80s.
65. Like to read. My favorite book so far has to be “Kane and Abel”
66. Did my industrial training in Penang n enjoyed every moment of it.
67. Want to be a full vegetarian.
68. The longest I’ve been without eating meat was 2 months.
69. Can go on hours talking about my princess.
70. Love the job I’m doing now.
71. Never thought suicide as an option for problems.
72. As a kid I used to b fat n short. Not a good combination.
73. I think Indian girls are the most beautiful looking ones.
74. I find girls in Saree are very attractive and sexy.
75. Like to spend a lot of time all by myself. Kind of a loner.
76. My younger brother will be earning more then I will b in 1 year time.
77. Extremely quiet when I’m with my family members.
78. I know for a fact that at least 4 of my best frens will go all out to help me if I’m in deep shit.
79. Still contemplating the purpose of life.
80. My room is always in a mess.
81. I have a list where I write down names, which I like.
82. I have my ears pierced. Just for the cool factor.
83. I have talked on the phone for almost 6 hours non stop.
84. I have copied during my exams n never got caught while I’m at it.
85. I’ve broken my hand and ankle while I was a kid.
86. I think my right armpit sweats more then the left. Not too sure though…
87. Though I’m not a looker, I expect the person who I fall for must b pretty. (typical male stereotype?)
88. I believe my princess is a hot babe.
89. It takes me damn long to admit the reality. Coz reality always bites u in the ass.
90. I have hurt a lot of people without me realizing it, especially girls. (insensitive moron)
91. I wish to be back in the year 1999 and relive each moment all over again.
92. Like to be kissed on my eyes.
93. I don’t have the patients to teach anyone about anything.
94. I hate Boybands yet I hum some of the songs when I hear it on radio.
95. I know for a fact that I’m no angel.
96. I think girls with a slight curly hair are sexy.
97. I feel that everyone should be given the opportunity for education.
98. I can never seem to get over things that have past. Always yearn for another opportunity to go through everything.
99. I would want to go through my life all over again, if given the option. I don’t think I want to change anything.
100. I can go on writing this list.
Writing this list have made me realise many thing about me which I never thought about. Aaaahhhh, the beauty listing things out.
@ 9:23 PM
Sunday, July 27, 2003
Money well spent …
Finally, I got the new audio system I was talking about in my previous post, installed in the car. At first I felt that I’m spending way too much money on that system. But the moment I power on the unit, all my worries of not spending the money in much wiser way, disappeared into thin air. I’ve got to say, it’s worth every cent I paid for. I think after such a long time, this particular investment has to be the one which I really see value for the money. The system is wonderful, the sounds are so clear n it’s functions are superb. Now, barely 24 hours after spending a great amount of money, I’m already planning for the things that I’m going to change in the car in the next few months. One at a time. First in the list is, a new sets of speakers. :D
@ 9:40 PM
Sunday, July 20, 2003
List me out ...
Been working on a list, 100 things about me. I've reached half way of the target number, but now I'm contemplating if I should post it here when I'm done with it. The reason ? Well there are things that might not be too pleasant for people to know about me. Should I or shouldn't I ? Will try to censor things out, but if I do then wouldn’t the list be painting inaccurate picture about me?
On a different note, I've been on the hunt for car accessories shops. Looking around for a good bargain on a new audio system for the car. Kinda got my eyes set on one system already, but it’s gonna set me back me 630 bucks. I’m really contemplating if I should be blowing off that much of money on a new system. Hmmm, wat the heck… I’m just gonna put my whole claims from last 2 months on the system n not touch my pay at all, so it’s not that bad I guess.
@ 10:48 PM
Saturday, July 19, 2003
Down n out ...
It's the 3rd saturday of the month, which means I should be on leave today. It should have been my day off, but unfortunately it was not. I had to go to the office to get some work done today. All this thanks to the stupid programmer I'm working with. The due date for the completion of the programme was on the 16th July but thanks to his stupidity, it was only completed today. *Sighing, I actually got a lot to say on this... but i'm just too lazy to write about it.
For some reason I feel very demotivated about life. Feel like I've been beaten badly at this weird game called life. At one point I was the king of my domain n now I'm like the joker in my own kingdom. Need a break...
@ 4:33 PM
Tuesday, July 15, 2003
Blind at 90km/h …
Quite a horrible day. Almost died, well not really to that extend la… But I could’ve endured shit lots of pain. Not to worry, all is well now. The car windshield broke while I was driving today. Yes… it just broke with no warning. All I heard was a loud explosion and the next thing I know is that, I could see nothing in front of me. It was like being blind at 90km/h n trust me it's no fun. All I could see at that moment was a lot of small cracks on the windshield n scary sounds of glass cracking. Damnnn, I really freaked out when I heard that loud explosion. Guess it was because of a stone.
I was in the middle lane on 3 way highway doing around 90km/h when this happened. I did exactly wat everyone in their right state of mind would have done. Slowed the car, switch on the hazard light n try to stop in the emergency lane. Well the slowing down part was not that hard, switching on the hazard light was impossible, coz that damn thing doesn’t work. But the worse part was trying to stop in the emergency lane. It was quite a challenge. I looked on the left rear mirror n saw nothing, so I moved to the lane n right before I tried to enter the emergency lane I saw this huge yellow stuff in the emergency lane. I was not so sure whether that damn thing was moving really slow or was just being static in the emergency lane. As I came nearer it became obvious to me what that huge yellow stuff was, bloody hell, it was a crane moving along the emergency lane, really slow. Did the super avoiding shit n drove few hundred meters in front of the crane before I stopped the car. Damnnn, I almost rammed into that fella, but at that time I didn’t panic as how I should have, but now thinking about it, it was really a scary stuff.
Well I knew exactly wat to do at that time when I stopped the car. It was barely a week ago when my friend was in the same situation, stranded in the middle of the road because his windshield broke, just like how mine did. But at that time I was the hero la, I drove to that place n helped him to break the glass n clear it off before bringing the car to get it fixed. Well today, it was his turn to become the hero. Gave him a SOS call n after 10mins he was there, my savior. We broke the glass n drove it to the nearest shop to get it fixed. N here I am now poorer by 200 bucks n a bit sad. Told about the whole stuff to my parents n regretted immediately after that. Well I should have censored the ‘almost ramming into the crane’ part. Parents got all worried on how worse it could have been n justified the reason whey they always ask me to be careful when I’m on the road. Damnnn… Even went to temple earlier. At first I didn’t want to go n then just to make my folks feel better I just decided to go. Well I don’t blame my parents for being all worried n stuff.
Thanks god… for it’s just broken glass n everything else still intact n not the other way around.
@ 11:39 PM
Monday, July 14, 2003
Headache revisited...
Ohhhh, the pain.... Having one of the days where u just wish u could dismantle ur head n leave it aside till the pain resides. I'm having massive headache. It's been almost a month since I used to complain about my headaches, n after that, it just stopped. The headache just stopped without any medication or any active action from my part. N now it's back..
Had quite a pain in the ass day. The morning session was ok, had a presentation for the technical support group. The pain started in the evening. Spent almost 3 ****ing hours in the Kementerian Perdagangan Dalam Negeri’s office. Was sitting in their place like a dumb fuck waiting for them to just hand me my stuff so that I can get the hell out of that stupid place. But noooo, they made we wait till 5 n then told me that they couldn’t process the forms because they received too many application n that I have to come the next day to get it completed. Morons, morons and more morons, they are everywhere.
A slow death… Isn’t everyone going through that at this very moment?
Desperately in need of a good body massage...
@ 8:42 PM
Thursday, July 10, 2003
Fast learning ...
Things didn't go as how I would have like it to be today. The day started as usual, but everything after the start of the day didn't go as I expected. Today suppose to be the day I finalize the project which I'm working on and never to think of requesting for any editing work to be done from the moron who's coding for the project. Well this didn't happen, it was partly my fault, things which I requested to be changed a month back was still not there. I kinda overlooked before presenting it to my manager, hoping that all the changes made 2 weeks back will still be there. Boy oh boy, was I wrong or wat. All of sudden, things which suppose to be there was no more there, n things which not suppose to be there was there. But I can swear that I saw the new version of the program with all the changes implemented few weeks back just few days back. When I presented that project to my manager today, I had a heart attack, one after another. I just couldn't understand where all changes made disappeared to. So wat else ? I had to sit all over again with my manager to identify the changes need to be made and correcting a lot of stuff. The presentation portion of the project was designed using Flash n since there were so many mistakes in it, my manager thought it would be better for me just to sit n work on it rather then getting the moron (programmer) to work on it, since he’ll take forever to get it done. Ohhh boy... the whole day I sat in front my computer learning and editing flash presentation files. Learning process and the implementation process going on side by side, now that’s wat I call effective learning. N on top of that, I also had to make changes in the help file accompanying the program, because the moron didn't incorporate the earlier changes made to the Flash files on to the help file. There I was sitting like a dumb fuck editing the Flash files and recompiling the help file with the changes made. Come to think of it, Flash is not all that hard, it just takes a bit of time to learn up the basic, and after that it's quite ez stuff, I guess.
Well after making all the changes, I was so mad that I felt like screaming at the moron of a programmer. So I called him and asked him a very simple question. "How do u keep track of changes that you make to the program?". Long pause.... no answer. I asked him again "Do use any versioning system?". Another long pause... then the answer came out. "Well, I don't really use any versioning system so I can't really keep track of all the changes". Well at that very moment I felt like strangling that dude. That explains y I've been getting some old copies of the program whenever I ask him for a new copy.
Now I realize how important is that stupid Software Engineering paper I took while I was in uni. Was cursing the lecturer almost everyday coz he was such a hard ass, but now it all makes sense. It all makes sense…
@ 10:37 PM
Wednesday, July 09, 2003
Motivation ...
I've got so much of things to blog about here, yet I don't have the motivation to sit n put my thoughts into words. Probably, I'm just too bloody lazy n a bit tired.
Had a great time tonite. Met up with guys from A6 n had a quite a good discussion. N it sure has been long time since I met up with them. Hmmm, should do this more often. Talked about almost everything, from bussiness to girls, well that pretty much all we talked about. Well, the next meeting will be on Cherno I think :D. Thanni party, hopefully...
Will be going for a full body massage this weekend n I hope that I'll come back in one piece.
Tooo lazy... n tired.
@ 10:07 PM
Friday, July 04, 2003
Clock ticking away...
My biological clock is going hay wire. Yeah, that's the one which keeps on ticking in ur head, non stop. Tick tock tick tock... N mine is not doing that well. One day I feel damn sleepy by the time the clock strikes 10, and the next day, I don't feel sleepy at all even though it's 3 in the morning. With me having to wake up by 730 in the morning for work, this is definitely being a big struggle for me to cope. Everynow n then I have a war goin between the blanket n my brains. Its as if the blanket has mind of its own. Though my brains will
try to resist the temptation of extra rest, normally it looses out. Well, the best way to resist temptation is to give in, isn't it? Following this rule very strictly :).
Y is this stupid clock in my head going wild? Tick tock tick tock ... tick tick tick tick tick
@ 9:25 PM
A new, brighter beginning, just like the sunflowers.
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