Saturday, November 15, 2003
Me n god …
Went to temple after a looooooong time n it felt good. Few years back, I used to go to temple every Friday n after awhile the frequency just dropped. The reason y this happened is remain to be discovered, but I think it’s more to the fact, I believed god had been very cruel to me. Throwing so many unexpected and hurtful incidents in my direction. But now I realize, it’s part of life, once in awhile u get kicked in the ass n pushed around. I’m glad that I’ve moved out of the phase where I put all the blames to the man up there. Now I go to temple whenever I feel like it. I don’t feel obliged to go to temple on a routine basis coz I don’t see the purpose on forcing myself into it. Anyway, I get this real calmness when I go there, it feels very peaceful, totally in sync with myself. I also get a chance to clear up my mind which is pretty messed up most of the time. Each time I go to temple, I for some reason, will get reminded of incidents from the past, both the good n the bad. It feels like some kind of review session between me n god. Like, I’m trying to justify to the man up there, all my actions to date, the good, the bad and the ugly ones. So there I’ll, be just standing there, staring blankly into the statues while my brain busily runs through a small slide show with snapshots from past, trying to figure out my reasoning for such action.
Went for Matrix show with Kavi in the evening. Pretty good show, it’s just that I’m totally confused with the whole concept of Matrix. I guess, I’ve got to get hold of all the 3 releases and watch it back to back n try to figure out everything to really enjoy the whole show. Other then that, it’s a show really worth watching.
On a totally unrelated issue, Shals from Girl: Disembowled have decided to stop blogging. Yeandi? Though I wish she’ll continue with the blog, I guess the decision is totally on her N I’ll respect it.
@ 10:29 PM
A new, brighter beginning, just like the sunflowers.
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