Wednesday, August 06, 2003
Tears rolls on…
Aaaahhh, the beauty of feeling fucked up. Ask me all about it, and I can explain it to u, in a very detailed manner. How come, u might ask, coz that’s how I feel rite now. I feel super depressed n sad. Shitty, to be more precise. It just sucks ass when one is put in such a situation. It just fucks up ur brain so badly that u can’t even think straight. When u r in such a situation, it always feels that the world is being unfair to u, it’s like we don’t deserve the way we were treated all this while. It's like we'were taken for a ride, on which we willingly accepted to be a passenger. Only later to realise, that, it was the worse thing ever to happen in your life. Well, I don’t know if everyone else will feel that way when things screws up, but I certainly am. Dammnn this feeling.
On another note, it came to my knowledge that an incident which effected me very deeply few years ago, might have another twist to it. Now I’m being put in a situation where I can choose to find out the other side of the incident or continue to believe on what I think is the truth. How am I suppose to know which is which?
It’s feel like being in the matrix. Being given the option between 2 pills, the red and the green. Taking the red will reveal the real world where machine runs the world and where humans are just slave and there’s no return from this. Taking the green pill, will let me believe in what is happening around me, n let me continue life exactly where I left it. Well the choice is totally up to me now. Which one should it be? The green or the red? But how I’m suppose to know which is the reality? The ultimate truth?
Tears have rolled after such a long time of being held back. The pain have subsided, but the scar is still there. And the memories are still fresh.
@ 10:20 PM
A new, brighter beginning, just like the sunflowers.
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