Thursday, May 01, 2003
Life as it is ...
It always amuses me on how complicated life can be. As hard as I try to make it simple, it always somehow manages to somehow screw me up. Just when I thought nothing else can possibly go wrong, I was yet again proven wrong. Fate, as I would like to blame it on, has yet again decided that I should go through another phase of shitty feelings. God hear me out, please, I just want to move on, dun keep dragging me into this again n again. I just dun have the strength to climb out of this shit hole over n over again. I didn't ask for it, but u still showed it to me, n u took it away just when I realized it's the most beautiful thing that I've ever had. I complained, yet u didn't bother about it. Just when I thought it's all over, u gave me hope, dragged me into it again n I thought this time it will have a fairy tale ending. But only to hurt me further. I worked my ass off to get everything into the way I wanted. N to certain extend I did achieve it. I was willing to throw everything I had for something that I believed n still believe the best thing to ever happen to me.
Now, I'm all drained of the will power n the energy to go through it all over again.
How I wish I can pick my life exactly where I dropped n move on with no regrets. It's seem almost impossible for me to achieve this. But I'm glad that people around me have managed to just move on. I guess life is too short to just sit n mope about dreams that didn't materialize.
@ 1:12 PM
A new, brighter beginning, just like the sunflowers.
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