Saturday, March 29, 2003
Dazed
There's this weird feeling within my self which keeps on asking for time out. Time out from the presence of people around me. Time out from everything important. A feeling of wanting to b all alone. In another word a feeling of wanting to be a loner. Just want to sit in an enclosed space n have quality moment all to my self. Totally cut myself out from facing people face to face. The thought of me wanting to detach myself from the presence of people kinda scares me abit, but i guess it's something every one feels at one part of their dailly life. Or maybe it's because i miss all good the times that i used to have for myself when i'm in uni. Ohhh the good ol' days. Some times after class i'll go back to my room n b all alone, doin so many stuff. From reading story books, surfing, studying n at times just sit n b idle staring at the walls or at times looking out of the window not concentrating on any particular object, n just let my mind roam free. But now, I'm always surrounded by people, wherever i go, i'm just not getting time for myself, time to let my brains to wonder about.
Apart from wanting to b alone, I kinda miss all the small pleasures in life. Miss those times where i would walk in the rain n b totally soaked or times when i would just cycle around without knowing where to go, just go on n on looking at the surroundings, admiring the view from the slow lane of life till i decide that it's getting late that i should head back home. Ohhh the small things which i used to do when i was small. Given a chance, I would like to relive my chilhood all over again with no changes, but this time I'll cherish each n every second of it, coz I know it'll never come by again.
Izzit normal or am i the odd one ? Do every one get this kinda feeling ?
@ 12:02 AM
A new, brighter beginning, just like the sunflowers.
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