Wednesday, January 01, 2003
I slept like a pig in the evening coz i was so damn tired after the New Year party n the lack of sleep following it. Now i’m all fresh, physically at least. Went for PcRangers meeting earlier. Now i’m back at home reading “The Firm” another one of the court room story. At the moment, i’m in this highly confused state of mind. My brains is trying to process too many things at one go n i dun seem to b able to keep track with it. Feeling blur n stoned. Wish i can make my brains n body to go into idle state so that i dun have to b bothered about anything. I’ve been slowly realising that alot of problems in life can b avoided or solved if humans can throw away the feeling of wanting attention n having needs n desires.
Santhia sms’d earlier, she was all excited about meeting this dude who she thinks might b Mr.Right for her. Well i never knew something like this was goin on, as in she was on the lookout for Mr Right. I’m sincerely happy for her but also worried about other things. Certainly if everything goes well n she gets hooked n stuff i’ll b spending much2 little time with her or 0 time with her. N most prob the frequency of phone calls n sms will just drop n somehow or rather i think it’s already happening now. Hmmm, just when u thot u found someone nice who u can talk n b really comfortable n not bothered about impressing them because all u want is their friendship, BOOM they throw something like this to ur face. Maybe i’m just overreacting about this whole thing, but this is something which i cannot count out because it has happened before. Whatever it is, I really hope that she’s really sure about everything before she gets committed into a relationship.
Hoping to live by this rule for this year.
* Stop being a moron,
* pay more attention to my life n my surroundings
* stop feeling sorry for myself
* stop blaming others for wats happening to me.
@ 10:47 PM
A new, brighter beginning, just like the sunflowers.
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